Having Another Child?

I love kids - I really do. But talk about having another at this time when things are finally settling down a bit, I think I am not ready. So is Du.

Recently my sister got pregnant and this brought about feelings of having another child, so we started talking about if we should really have another child although we had initially decided that 2 will be all we are ever going to have. Perhaps because Du has never told me, or just that we kinda fell so much in love with our kids that we decide, perhaps we can have 3? After weighing the pros and cons, I guess we have also planned that we may want another child 2 years from now, but not now. Certainly not when we are getting burnt out from our parenting the monkey and the chicken. :)) Then perhaps, we may never want another child... unless.....

Maybe because we told Kieona about her auntie being pregnant and there may be another child in the extended family, or perhaps there has been a recent flood of her schoolmates having a new baby brother or sister that she started asking me to have a Didi. I told her maybe Yeeyee will be having a Didi, but at this tender age of 2, she could even tell me that she wants "mommy to have Didi, don't want Yeeyee to have a Didi".

Just the other day, we attended a baby shower and Kieona asked me again, "Mommy, can we have a Didi? I want a Didi," when I brought her to the washroom. Sigh... how can we explain this to her? The fact that I've missed my menses last month is causing me a little bit of anxiety too.... can we be third time L U C K Y?